Where to go from here

When you come from a place that challenges you spiritually, physicially and (only occasionally) mentally, what are you supposed to do when you come out of it to a place of T.v. land, fast food and real meat? It boils down to a condition more serious than your typical "reverse-culture shock." First, I have to find a way to get my hair to stop falling out (lack of protein for 5 months does that to you), then I have to figure out what it means to make money (I think it's called a JORB), and even still after working all that out, there's the issue of food in excess (I'm not getting fat I'm just fluffing out).

Every time I come home I realize there are fewer and fewer things that interest me the same way they did when I was here last. In a way it feels like going to a new place and starting over from scratch, even though the people here seem to know my name and where I live. You would think it would take a week or two and things would feel natural again... the truth is nothing ever really feels natural unless I am on a plane, in a strange city, or at the top of a mountain with a backpack of the bare necessities.

There is a new curiosity to know what lies beyond even the big chunk of the world I've already seen. Travelling doesn't seem to quench the curiosity, so my solution is to explore another avenue of philosophy, self-discovery, and expression: