God's presence... all that I long for? All that I desire? All that fulfills me? There is proof of this in my soul when it is turned toward Him in worship.
I had plans, I had passions, I had a dream.
I have nothing.
The Lord makes the plans of a righteous man to prosper. What does that say about me and my failed plans? God says His presence will go with me, that He will give me rest. I echo Moses in my heart: "If Your Presence does not go with us, do not bring us up from here."
Not even the promised land after forty years of death and toil is enough to convince me this dream of milk and honey is worth giving up God's presence, even if He is in the desert.
The slate is wiped clean. I have no plan, no dream, no 'calling', no future until the God of the universe commands that I put my foot forward. Tomorrow does not exist anyway! For now I remain in the desert, with Him. Soon He may respond: "I will do as you have asked, because I am pleased with you."
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