I am in the middle of a book called "Love.." by Elizabeth Elliot. Amazing woman of God, full of faith and trust in Him! While reading this book her attitude about trusting God has kind of rubbed off on me. Let's just say that I have not been the most patient of women these past few weeks... In fact, I've been driving myself nuts with anxiety over the most important things to me in life right now: the future in general, Mexico and the timing of it all, this stupid American Airlines voucher... well, it's not really important what the problems are, just that they exist and my patience is running thin --- so thin it's a lot like wet rice paper.
Even so, after reading about the patience of Mrs. Elliot when her future was in the balance, I feel ashamed of myself for not trusting God more to take care of things. I know that when I am in God's will, He will order my steps and I don't have to be anxious... Except for one problem: there are some things I simply WANT!!! I want to go to Mexico, I want to go to the mission school, I want to live there and make my home there. I want to go this February, and I want the voucher to come in time for me to go in February! I suppose there are a lot of things that a lot of people want, but God sees a better path and re-directs those people.... I pray I'm not one of those people!
In this book I came across an interesting phrase which I've come to terms with, and I believe I've come to embrace the concept and even begun to experience a really amazing peace. The phrase was "Hopes and dreams are simply material for sacrifice." Meaning, of course, that whatever I hope and dream for, I should be willing to sacrifice for the bigger better plan of my God since I'm dumb and would just screw up life if I tried to take it into my own hands. It's so much easier, more joyful, more peaceful, more relaxing (!) to just trust God and not worry about what's coming. Concentrating on now is hard enough!
2 comments:
Perdon... piensa nuevamente si no quieres que por lo menos pague alguna parte para ayudarte.
Besos y Feliz Navidad.
Seb
Hola hermosa
Sabes ahora quiciera platicar contigo... pero no se es demaciado pronto y nada para platicar de pedos existenciales contigo....pero entra algo q estoy aprendiendo de ti,.. y la neta ... la neta lo sigo negando
Dios .. cristo....me aconjoga enormemente mujer no sabes ,... la pena me ahoga en el alma y no poder definir ese lado .... y poder penzar como tu.... la vida es mas loca q lo q puede ser una religion... asi como decias tu q nosotros no hemos sufrido como otra gente... pero bueno las historias cambian y hay mucho q contar ..... Pero en fin te escribiria un blog entero de dios la vida , y otras hierbas... pero no se mi ser se rehusa rotundamente y mas con lo que pasa al rededor....donde estan tus ojos azules en este momento???
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